Christmas 2008

Christmas in California...with family! I knew the holiday would be very different...duh!!!! I knew I would have that feeling of wanting to be somewhere else...just not knowing where...and I did. We cried...we laughed...we saw new things, did different things. It was good...in a weird sort of way. Other than getting ornaments in memory of Steve, I didn't do anything "meaningful" to mark the day. I'm actually feeling quite numb right now...disbelief that he is gone has crept back in...the rock is back in the pit of my stomach and the tears brim my eyes.